Apologies and regrets.

Lately, I have been thinking about times in my life, when I did some pretty mean things. These instances involved me being hurtful to others. Thankfully, these occurrences happened when I was younger...before I turned 30. I guess as I am turning 40 in a few days, I have been taking inventory of how my life has gone...my challenges, success, and regrets.

I have accepted many of life's experience as just that. I don't have any regrets for how my life has gone or situations I have found myself in. These were wonderful learning experiences, no matter how hard they were at the time. The only regret that stays with me are the times, when I feel, I have hurt others. Circumstances where I went too far and overreacted... was mean and even sometimes cruel. As I reflect, I can only guess why I became so angry or disheartened. I guess, at the time, to maintain my sense of control over others or to bully others like I was being bullied at times.

Some of these instances are ancient history and I am not sure that the "victims" would still remember the circumstances or even care anymore. The important thing is that I do. This energy of not feeling "forgiven" is still stuck. Acting like the incident never happened is not allowing the "truth" to be spoken and heard.

Have you ever hurt anyone and then pretended that it never happened? Find that person(s) today and have a conversation about it, or at least find a way to apologize. Speaking the truth will surely set you free. I have my list of people and will be working on this. Do you have yours?

Just in case I forget anyone...hopefully you will read this..."I am sorry if I have done anything to make you feel small or if I have hurt you in any way." I was being small myself at the time and didn't appreciate who you are. I am different now and see your true, magnificent self...thank you.

Regrets are the first sign of age...remove them from your life.

Be good to yourselves and each other today.
Best,
Thomas